My love story

Well, Hello, me again, so in this occasion i want to evokate my story, i was never what you can call a "thin" person, but i hadn't been the heavier neither, as i said in the last post, everything started in my childhood, and the very first time i liked a boy, i was between 5 and 8 years, his name is adahir, but he liked my best friend manuela, and they became boyfriends, but for some reason he had my inicials in one of his notebooks, (yacv), in really pretty letters, but someone told me that, he didn't let me see his notebook to check haha, the second time, it happened when i was 10 and i liked a boy name "anderson guevara", and i told one of my friends (sofia), that i was sure he liked me, and then when she went to ask him, she told him "do you like yeni?" (because my name is yeni alejandra), and then he told her "who is yeni?", he didn't even know who i was, i felt ridiculous, and then in my school had an broadcasting station, and we could send messages, we were on our break, and then in the broadcasting station  i heard a voice that said "jennifer i love you, att: anderson guevara" (jennifer was a girl from my group of friends) and yep, it happened again, now she is my age, and she has a baby, i don't know how old is him and as an aditional information i never knew anything else from manuela, but well, let's follow, after that, i had a friend that was whit me only for convenience, her name is "heidi" and she made a lot of bad comments of me, once she told me that my nose didn't combine whit my face, another time she told me that my sister "Diana" was stupid, that my brother "Humberto" was an ogre, and that my mom was a gossipy woman sooo eventually that "friendship" ended, and btw, she also has a baby already, and she is also my age,but the thing is that she is really pretty too, she has a georgeous skin, an amazing curly hair, pretty eyes and pretty face of course, the only thing was her teeth, they were a little twisted, but later she had braces.

the next one was another friend of mine "manuela", another manuela, i met her when i was 13, she was thin and beatiful too, she came from the coast and she was really humble when i met her, she was really easygoing, but later in time she realized that she was beautiful (because she has an awesome hair, and beatiful skin) and she became really annoying, and the way she walked was really different in a very very bad way, and we separated when i moved away, so for that time i liked two guys, jefferson and daniel, both of them were like 15  or 16 or 17 i don't know, daniel seemed to like me, he is white, blonde, and green eyes, and jefferson is swarthy, black and curly haired and he has brown eyes, Daniel seemed to like my sister Diana, because she took the bus in the time of our break, outside the school , and he always went out, i think that he liked too see her, he told one of my friends that he liked me, at the end of the year, but he had a girlfriend, we never talked to each other for more than 2 minutes, it was only once (he talked to me  only once, nothing important of course) i think, soo after the end of that year i was moving to another neighborhood, i was going on saturday, but life happens, and i went on friday, after that i knew that he went to my house, to talk whit me, on saturday,  awful right?, but well who would have known, maybe it was for the best, and about jefferson well, what can i say he had a big big big, crush on my sister diana, there is no reason to be surprised, my sister is georgeous, and almost everyone has taken the obligation of letting me know that,  after that when i was 17 i got in college (freshman year), and i meet a boy at the gym his name is "bryan" and i have a friend named "yesenia", she has THEE, body: small waist, big butt, nice legs, you know, and guess what, he had a crush on her too, sooo, yeap, and before that guy, there was this guy "felipe" i called him "my future husband" and he liked my sister too, AKWAAARD, i have only had two boyfriends, one when i was 9,i use to hangout whit his parents all the time, his name is "darwin" and he is one year younger than me, and he doesn't like to study at all, and the other one is named "duvan" but them had something in common, we didn't talk too much, or salute each other, and we never gave each other a kiss, yep, i have never been kissed hahah, at least i'm only 18 right?, hahha almost nothing hahha. but they were most part little crushes, i have never been in love, you can't fall in love whit someone you don't talk to, they were all just attractions, the most important ones were daniel and jefferson, because they were like my teenage dreams, you know?

and in this moment i don't like anybody, i only find interesting one guy, i don't know his name, and i don't talk to him neither, but i think he is handsome and i like his style, that is something like this,

 yes, i know i have a big crush on m. shadows, maybe my brain unconsciously, made the similarity, and that is why i like him, altough i think he is a hardcore fan, because he has m. shadows haircut you know?

he is just another crush (the guy (he is from college btw)), but i am sure he doesn't notice me at all, nevermind is not a big deal, it will eventually go away, as everybody else.

Now i would like to tell you a story about this picture:

it is pixeled i know, it was taken whit a web cam.

I took this picture the day i turned 15, but i wasn't happy neither, and i don't like to look at the past and knowing that i have never been happy, and i don't want to not being happy, for the rest of my life.

sooo as a conclusion i am in love whit my studies, altough it is an impossible love, he doesn't love me as much as i do, and he makes me suffer so bad haha.

PD: This is Diana:

bye.